Is a Kiss Just a Kiss?

What’s in a Kiss?

A kiss hello; a kiss goodbye; a birthday or holiday kiss. Is a kiss worth a thousand words? I remember when my kids were young and they would get sick with the flu or a cold, I would be right there with the medicine, chicken soup and a kiss. I would kiss them over and over just to reassure them that they would be okay.

I remember when I was young and struggling to breathe with asthma, my mom would rock me in the “Tiddley Doo” rocking chair, sing the “Tiddley Doo” song to me and kiss my forehead over and over. There was something about that kiss. It just made me feel so peaceful, secure and loved.mother and child

I remember when my dad became very sick with cancer and I was able to spend some time with him. I would bring him his favorite tapioca pudding and give him a kiss on the cheek. I can still feel the warmth of his cheeks on my lips. I wanted my kiss to reassure him that he would be okay. I know he felt it; he felt secure and loved.

A kiss can be a beautiful thing, but what if it is dangerous. What if you’ve just gotten into an argument with your spouse or a loved one? When you “kiss and make up” does it feel the same? Do you feel at peace, loved and secure or are you just going through the motions? I’ve been there. I’ve either given a kiss when I was not ready to or received a kiss when my heart was still hard and angry.angry child

Remember when Judas kissed Jesus in a way of betrayal? Now the betrayer had given them a sign, saying, The One I shall kiss is the Man; seize Him.And he came up to Jesus at once and said, Hail (greetings, good health to You, long life to You), Master! And he embraced Him and kissed Him]with [pretended] warmth and devotion. I love the amplified version because it emphasizes on the pretend embrace with the kiss. Then what happens? The soldiers came up and laid hands on Jesus and arrested Him.

Now let’s look at just a few examples of Jesus’ affection for us.

Romans 8:39 Nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

2 Corinthians 13:14 The grace (favor and spiritual blessing) of the Lord Jesus Christ and the love of God and the presence and fellowship (the communion and sharing together, and participation) in the Holy Spirit be with you all. Amen

Ephesians 1:5  For He foreordained us (destined us, planned in love for us) to be adopted (revealed) as His own children through Jesus Christ, in accordance with the purpose of His will.

We are so special to Him that he planned us in love. He calls us His children. Now that’s something to embrace…Lord thank you so much that even when my heart is hard, you don’t deny your love to me. You don’t walk away or hold onto anger when I’ve sinned. Thank you for always washing away my sins and embracing me. Show me how to be this kind of example to others.

Into the Throne


While I was at Bible study this week, we discussed the word “throne” from the book of Revelation. I really have been thinking about that word for a couple of days. During my shaky moments this week, I just shut my eyes and whispered to God, “Okay, Lord, take me to the throne of your grace.”

While preparing for my study this morning, I was reading and got stuck in chapter 5. I wasn’t stuck because I didn’t understand it, which is usually the case, no; I got stuck because I became engulfed by the awesomeness of God. I was truly captured by His Spirit and allowed the moment to sink down into my marrow and I wept. Take this in my dear friends:

I heard every creature in heaven on earth, under the earth, on the sea, and everything IN them say:

Blessing and honor and glory

And dominion

To the One seated on the throne,

And to the Lamb, forever and ever!!!

I read it again and again…everything IN them said…Have you ever just fallen before the throne, praying with all that is IN you? We are going to go through trials in this life. 1Peter 5:10 tells us that:

Now the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ Jesus, will personally restore, establish, strengthen, and support you AFTER you have suffered a little.

I remember a particular time in my life, when I felt like I was losing everything. I was in the middle of my farmhouse kitchen, weeping to the song Healing Rain by Michael Smith.  I got down on my knees right there in the middle of the hard wood floor, empty walls, furniture gone and wept at the throne, giving God the glory and honor because I knew HE was seated there ready to meet with me.


Oh Dear beloved, if you are at a crossroads in your life, if you’ve got some health concerns, if you have lost your job, if you have a loved one that is terminally ill, please get into the throne room with God. Turn off your cell phone, turn off the washer and dryer, and turn off the sounds that will distract you and just get there and worship with all that is IN you. I promise you, He will be there and He will not let you down. To hear the song by Michael W. Smith, click on the link below. If I’ve done another technology faux pas, please just go to and type in Healing Rain.rain

Lord, for us who need to meet with you so often, thank you for never walking away. Thank you God that you are there, listening to us and wiping our tears. Please touch those who really need you right now. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

My Diagnosis + Satan’s Lies = CAPTIVITY…

As said earlier in the week, I want to write about the above equation.  First of all, all of you who have been following my blog know about my diagnosis of Idiopathic Nephrotic Syndrome. (Aka kidney disease)  It’s one that I was not expecting but one that I’m coming to terms with.meditating


Many days I want to jump out of bed, with a spring in my step, a song in my heart and laughter in my voice. Rewind…”That’s only in the movies…You can’t have that…You will be stuck there, feeling crummy for a long time. Roll over and pull the covers up over you and go back to sleep. You have nothing to do anyway because you are not important.” Those are just a few things that Satan tries to trap me with. He wants so much to get into my life from the minute I open up my eyes in the morning to the moment I shut them at night. He wants to get into my mind and manipulate it all day long. Frankly, it makes me wake up with my “mad” on. His lies put me right into captivity and it’s so hard to get out at times.


However, most days, I don’t allow Him. He is unable to mess with my mind when it’s wrapped around the Word. What I mean by that is, I am memorizing scripture and being able to use it for battle. We can spend time with God in our favorite chair with coffee and chat. We can meet God when we take a walk or sit and watch the sunset but none of that is going to prepare us for battle. No, we need to know the Word and be ready at all times so that when rough times hit us, we can raise the Word of God and say, “in the name of Jesus, I know that God’s Word is alive and active.  I may be walking through a valley right now, but God leads me beside still waters. Lord, do not withhold your compassion from me; your constant love and truth will always guard me. Psalm 40:11 HCSB


I know that there are days in our lives where we want to run as far away as we can from Satan but 1Peter 1:8 tells us to be ALERT and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.  I can either choose to stay armed and fully clothed in the full armor of God,

Ephesians 6:10-18 or I can wimp out and give into the lures of the nasty enemy.


Readers, I have fallen flat on my face lately not in praise but in defeat. But today I am here to say that I CAN get back up and if you are down there, you can get up as well!!! I am dedicated to not just spending time with God, although I cherish my coffee and chit-chat time; I’m dedicated to memorizing scripture so that I can recall it when I need it.

Glutton for Gluten

I’m definitely going back to staying away from gluten; or at least staying away from wheat. When I was recently told my one of the doctors that I saw that it would probably be safe to eat a regular diet including whatever foods I wanted, I was thrilled. The news was like a kid in the candy store, WITHOUT supervision.CandyI have become a glutton for gluten. At first when exposed myself to the little gluey protein substance, I noticed oh just a little bloating. However I summed that up to being diagnosed with a nephrodic disease. The more I increased my intake of the gluten/wheat (mostly breads, pasta’s and sugary cakes) the more I started feeling crazy things happening to my body.

My joint pains increased along with some headaches and then I came down with a full-blown sinus infection. None of this is related to the kidney disease. I know my body well enough, we’ve walked together for 50 years. I know what I’m feeling and it is more than the kidney stuff and believe me that’s plenty to deal with on its own. Oh and I failed to mention that my face looks like a teen with hormonal blemishes all over it? Ugh!

Some will say I’m dumb. Some will no doubt call me crazy. Some, and I know which ones you are will even mock me for going back on a GF diet, but I don’t care. I felt healthier when I was off of the stuff. My skin felt better and I had more energy. It will be a challenge again to refrain from the some of the goodies that I’ve come to have a relationship with again but it’s a love/hate relationship.

Today, I will take out the old food-diary and start documenting my symptoms. I will see if my skin clears up; if my achy joints become less painful and if my swelling increases or decreases.  Again, I DO NOT need all of this on top of what I deal with each day having a kidney disease.

So many of you have asked me what it is like having a kidney disease. Well, let me try to explain what I go through each day. When you have worked a long 12 hour day and come home exhausted, that’s how I wake up. Most days I feel like I have the flu, kinda achy in my joints with a little nausea. Most days I have to wear my slippers to work because my feet are so swollen and, I lose my concentration rather quickly. When I walk, I feel like I’m carrying bags of bricks on each legs. I sleep about 9 hours every night and some days I catch a 20 minute nap when I’m able to.

Each morning I have my “chit-chat” with God and each day He reminds me that there is a purpose for all of this . Romans 8:28 reminded me this morning that We know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”

So, today I stay on the path. I was able to take the time today to watch a video sent to me from a very dear friend of Beth Moore preaching and so now that I have watched it, written my notes, and shed lots of tears, I am going to go take a walk in the beautiful sunshine and listen to God. AND…Wednesday, I will be writing on

My Diagnosis + Satan’s Lies = CAPTIVITY…

Until then, I will remind you like I always try to, that there is purpose in everything.



Doors off the Hinges


          Another showing; that makes twelve in a month and in the middle of the winter! Wow!!! I hollered down the stairs as best as I could recouping from strep throat and a sinus infection, “Baby, we have a showing at 9:15.” He peaked his head around the corner of the stairwell and said, “Today? Can’t you say you’re sick?” I replied, “Sure I can but I won’t.” Surely I can go somewhere for an hour and my thought was, maybe this is the buyer. Out of all of our showings, this was the most inconvenient not only because I have been sick, but because I have let the house go. So, we quickly set out to conquer and divide. We loaded the dishwasher, made the beds, yes, that’s plural; I guess I was the one snoring last night. We quickly washed the toilets, cleaned the countertops and hung the fresh towels. We got ready for our day, locked up and left the house.

          While my husband headed out to work, I ran over to Panera to have a cup of coffee and bagel. I brought my Bible, my pad of paper and pen. I closed my eyes and prayed, Lord please let this be the buyer. It’s not that I don’t like our three bedroom, three bathroom, two car garage town house. We are just ready to move into a more affordable apartment with no responsibilities.

          Since I’ve been forced to work part time right now, we had to re-prioritize our list of wants and needs. We want to make sure that we can afford to basically live off of my husband’s salary if I have to totally stop working.

          We had our house on the market last fall but took it off during the holidays knowing that we would re-list it after the festivities were over. When we first listed it last fall, we were looking at relocating to a luxury apartment with high end appliances and hard wood floors. We were looking at places that would require us both to work, not knowing I would become ill and not be able to substantially add to our income. We had a five year plan all in order. That door was totally shut after I started working only part time in December. Thank you Lord for knowing your stuff.

          I have this standing joke with my daughter Shannon about her door always being taken off the hinges when she was a defiant young pre-teen. I would remove it during the day and when I went to bed at night, she would lean it back up against the door-way. Yes, very defiant!!!Despite that behavior, she is the most loving, compassionate young woman I’ve ever met and strong, wow so strong! I’m very proud of her. But, when she is acting up, I jokingly say, “Do I need to remove your door?” We both laugh.exterior-door-264x300

          Just recently she and my younger daughter Emma decided to embark on new journey together. You can read that on my blog entitled Tribute to My Kids.  I told my daughter that God not only opened the door for them, but He took it off the hinges for them so that they could both gracefully walk through it together.

All throughout our lives we have doors open and close. There are seasons where we are told to walk through and seasons where we are told, don’t enter. The question is do we obey?

Ecclesiastes 3:1 There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens. NIV

This is also a season for me; illness; sale of my home; working part time; experimenting with my writing; being in isolation; meditation and prayer and walking in total faith and trust. God will open the door, take it off the hinge in His timing, and my husband and I will walk through it hand in hand.

 For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God. 2 Corinthians 1:20 NIV

I love that verse and am dedicated to memorizing it because no matter if God says “yes” or “no” I will always give Him the Amen!!!Holding Glasses over Bible

Oh Lord, I am so thankful that we didn’t walk through an up-opened door last fall. We would have been in such a financial mess. Continue to give us your peace knowing you have the right buyer all lined up for our home. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.


          What doors are being opened and shut in your life? If God is re-directing your life, allow Him to take total control. Allow him to take the door off the hinge and replace it after you’ve held his hand and walked through in faith.