What do you think about the Bible? Is it a book to go along with the children’s song “The B-I-B-L-E”? Is it your manual for righteous living? Is it just a bunch of historical stories that you can’t relate to? Or, is it like the necessities of life itself…eating bread and drinking water?
Years ago I was so disciplined with my Bible reading and journaling time. I would wake up at 5:00 a.m. before my children would stir and sit either by the warm wood burning stove or on the outside deck where I could feel the spring breeze. There I would delve into the Word and not stop until my kids were tugging at my jammies demanding breakfast. I could not get enough of it.
- My dad’s death
- My many miscarriages
- Sale of my farm
- Leaving my church home of 15 years
- Leaving cozy friendships
- Living on my own
- Becoming a single mother
- My kidney disease and other illnesses
And the list goes on and on. However struggling with my circumstances has caused me to reflect and see God more and in my most recent health “crisis” I’ve been forced to slow down and be with HIM. Slowing down is not my forte’.
What does “be with Him mean”? It’s sitting at His feet with the Bible, with my notebook and with my heart open. Sometimes it’s not at 5:00 a.m. but rather 2:00 p.m. when my mind is clear. Sometimes it is at bedtime when I just want to relax in Him and there are still some days where it is at 5:00 a.m. with my coffee. Whatever the time may be, I’m there!!!
I am so thankful that my recent health is causing me to partake in my bread and water time with the Savior. I am so thankful that I am able to lay low and follow what is next with Him. When I am feasting on the Word of God, it is clearly the sweetest, happiest time of day. I can get full without fats and calories. YES!!!
God is using this time in my life in remarkable ways; ways in which I never thought I’d see again. I hosted a Women’s Bible study in my home today. There were 13 present and we sang praises and studied together. I have not done that since I left my farm. Oh Jesus thank you. I love to entertain and it’s high time I do it to glorify you.
I am taking the time to really pray for others and am sending those encouraging notes that I used to send. I am reading scripture and personalizing it again and I am trying my hardest to turn my negatives into positives. Most days I look up and say, “God, I give up. Take my life if you want me, and show me what that means today, because I am clueless.” Before I know it, I’m deep into the word, circling words, highlighting passages and crying over His love for me. And, all of this is by His design. I am just a willing servant and am blessed to be able to be so.
Find your bread and water time. Feast on His Word; let it fill you. This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. I talk to my soul every day and this is what I am repeating as soon as I put my leg over the bed in the morning. Let me rejoice and be glad it in.