Wow, it’s been almost three weeks since I’ve posted. Where has the summer gone? Where I live, the kids go back to school next week. Why? Where I grew up on the East Cost we didn’t start school until after Labor Day? When did you start and do you agree that this summer has gone by fast?
The first part of June I came down with the stomach flu. Then, I took a long needed vacation to Maine only to come home with a bad sinus and ear infection, which really put me out of commission for two weeks. I started to get into the swing of life again and my medications had to be adjusted. (kidney meds). I am on such a high dose of two different medications that I can hardly keep my eyes open at times and the body aches and pains that they cause are ridiculous. But, I had to do this in order to avoid any kind of dialysis or even worse, kidney transplant. But still….Come on!!!
Have you ever wanted to shout out, “Come on God?” Please tell me I am not the only one. If I am, yikes… I have had one of those years where I think I have maybe not shouted out, but at least softly blurted out, “Come on God.” My life has been in such an uproar with my health and finances that I can help but ask, “When God, When?”
If you have been dealing with your own MUCK, and have found yourself on the floor crying, on your knees begging, or on your bed deep breathing, what are you needing? I know that simple scripture, “Ask and you shall receive” is always a scripture I remember and hang onto. The confusing part is, asking does not mean we will receive in our time or receive at all. I do know that He hears me, He is working with me and it is fine for me to cry out, ask why and even ask when? He doesn’t get mad. He’s been there. He’s been tempted. He’s been hurt, humiliated, sad, scared and confused. He tells me to continue on this journey with HIM and always enjoy being with Him during adversity. (don’t have that mastered). I do know though He is always before me, along side of me beckoning me to follow Him. Yes Lord, I will.